Isn’t it Delightful?

I’m out.

06Jul09

Notes to self:

-Avoid fully trusting musicians, rappers, DJ’s, etc. It’s some bullshit usually.

-There are few people who care about themself less than others

-You will always give more than you will get, accept it and do what you can to be happy

-You need to drop two of those damn cats and hit the road

-Unless you want to go through what just went down again, you should never drink in that type of setting

-As much as people think they know who they are, they are really convincing themself to believe they are what it is they want to be. Few walk the talk.

-Realize moving is not the answer, but take into consideration the experience

-Realize you are worth a damn and a good catch

-Do something about everything

-Keep media limited and get life experience

-Show them why you mad, son!

-Look into moving to Brooklyn next year and get rid of the shitty shit that doesn’t make you shit

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02Jul09

I haven’t made an effort to blog in what seems to be a year (okay give or take a few months). Now that I am thinking of a written energy release, I seem to have been slacking in all of my ways picking my own brain. Well, I did express some thoughts a bit in the magazine and have vented many times to close friends. As far as my own personal thoughts goes and even the public entries on the web, my journal is inactive. Maybe it’s because I’ve been busy with a new job, or attending shows, and attempting some type of social life. I also don’t have the Internet…still. It’s not really on my top priorities.

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Aspects of our lives that are of sincere importance don’t come about without trudging through heavy waters in order to make it to the other side. Occasionally we must approach the challenge with two or more strategies until we discover what could work. Unfortunately, it is exasperating at times and will never be easy. However, one does have control of his or her decisions when it comes to keeping a head above water or allowing the force of the current to decide fate instead. For now, I’m treading water.

Conflicted.

I have crossed paths with new folk, which is always refreshing. I have distanced from old folk. And recently have lost a constant. It’s tough. It’s tough to care so much. As wack as it may seem, I wish I had a cold heart at moments. It’s really something I can’t change about myself though. I will always go the extra mile for someone else, which only becomes self-inflicted pain. I’m slowly learning to accept it…because well, it is who I am; a quality trait with a feeling of flaw. You know what, I can take that. Some day it will pay off right?

Damn. I still want to get away if I can pull it off. This week I’m sending for my New York cosmo lisc. just to keep my options open. I’m thinking near Brooklyn.